Since it would take forever for me to update my friendster blog. I’ve decided to move on to a much better place. My new blog at wordpress >>> http://cutiechii.wordpress.com
Please do check it out! Its more music oriented though, and you can download mp3s from there too. ^^
Wow, I can’t believe 2008 is coming to an end already. In just a few minutes, it’ll be a whole new year. Lol, and I still didn’t quite finish what I planned to do earlier this year. Bad me.
Hmm… overall, I think 2008 had been a quite good year for me. I finished high school, took the damn SPM exam, found new group and people to fangirl after and experienced other stuff than I wont mention here. Lol.
My new year resolution? I guess it would be improving myself in things that I feel I need to. Honestly, I do feel a bit disappointed of myself because I was unable to become what I wanted and there were too many times I’ve let myself down… Aish~ how I wish I can turn back time.
I’m a bit scared of what the year 2009 will bring. SPM results, continuing my studies, leaving home…. Omona! I dont think I’m ready for all of that at the moment. But its alright. I still have time to think on which road I’m gonna walk on next.
So… With this final post of 2008, I would like to ask for everyone forgiveness for my wrongdoings. I know I have hurt people’s feelings whether it was intentional or not. I also would like to thank everyone for being my friend and companion that accepts me for who I am. Only God would be able to repay all the wonderful things that you’ve done. I also wish you all the best for 2009 and pray that all your goals would be reached.
With this, I’ll end my blog entry for the year 2008. Sayonara, 2008~
Its holiday… its boring… and I have nothing to do. 
In fact, I’m so bored that I even cleaned up my room… And I don’t even like cleaning. 
If only I could get a job or something… I think I need a new hobby. One that doesn’t involve game, internet or computers… or sleeping. Hahaha.
Hmm.. I think I might start reading books again. I found some interesting books while I was in a bookstore not long ago, I think I’ll buy them if I have chances. Or I could just go to the library.. anything to kill my free time.
Since I was feeling bored, so I decided to take a few tests around the net. The results were pretty amusing:
Free-IQTest.net - Free IQ Tests
Am-I-Dumb.com - The Dumb Test
HumanForSale.com - Fun Quizzes
The last one pissed me off… I mean, only 1.96 million??!! 
I just got back from Kuching and I bought a new phone! Yay for me!! Its the blue black version of Nokia 5610 Express Music. It looks like this:
And its a 3G phone too with 3.2 megapixel autofocus camera. At first I wanted a red one but now I think the blue one looks better. Hehe… But the part I’m proud the most is I bought it using my own money! Didn’t ask my parent for a single cent. 
I also bought clothes too with the extra money I had. I’m supposed to be broke right now but I still have some money left, which I found strange.. Haha. 
So for the people that I’ve promised to treat them after SPM, don’t worry.
No more SPM wOOt! Kekeke~ I’m so happy right now. 
Overall I think I did just so so… But I’ll worry about the result later. Right now, I just want to enjoy my life. Ahaha.. will be going to Kuching today and will be back on Sunday. I dont know if I’ll be able to go on9 while I’m there… Ah, I’ll find something else to do. Plus, a friend of mine is tagging along for this trip so at least I’ll have a friend to gossip with. LOL.
Well, its bye2 to school life. I’ll miss u. XD
Woohoo! Physics paper is over and I can relax now since there’s nothing I can study on for EST. Hehe.. Today’s test… Gah… I ABSOLUTELY DEFINITELY 100% despise the subject that is PHYSICS. 
I mean, WTF are they asking in the papers?!!! And yesterday’s Biology is not exactly a walk in the breeze too. Ugh… To whoever that made the questions, I so hate u right now.
and I really mean it.
ああ～！！! ….. ごめん。
Well, the 2nd week of SPM is officially over. My thoughts? Add math was quite… normal? LOL. Paper 1 was easy but paper 2 made my brain exhausted. Pendidikan Islam was so so. I don’t know how well I did but it can’t be that bad. Today’s Chemistry paper.. Paper 1 was super easy, Paper 2 was normal… some were easy, some were hard… Well more like I’m not sure what to write there. I had troubles explaining things and I didnt quite understand the questions Haha. Paper 3 made me go WTF? as I didnt expect coagulation of latex and reactivity of alkaline metals would came out. I’m not sure about question 1 but question 2 supposed to be quite simple. But the simpler they are, the more worried I became. Because its simple I should get it right, right? Overall I think I did quite okay..
I got 3 papers left. Bio, Physics and Est. After that, I will no longer be a high school student.
Wow. Time sure flies fast.. I never thought I’ll say this but I really gonna miss going to school. Haha. I can’t imagine life without school right now, so that’ll be something I have to get use to.. Definitely have to get use to..
No more waking up early, ironing uniforms, homeworks… (This doesnt make much difference because I never finish them LOL)
Looking back, theres so much things that happened during my life as a high school student. Though not all of them are happy memories, they’re not all bitter too. Bittersweet maybe? Haha.. But its definitely interesting. There are some things I wanted to forget too. Haha.. But I can’t tell you what.
I did some pretty stupid + crazy stuff and made wrong decisions back then, but everything turned out okay so I guess its alright. Plus, mistakes help you to grow, as long as you realize, fix and doesn’t repeat them. That’s what I learned. What I also learned is that you have to let go in order to gain something else. There so much a person can carry after all. The more you let go, the more you can gain. Its as simple as that. Also, you should not let others hold you back if you feel or you know that you can succeed in something. You shouldn’t let opportunities pass by too because it’ll be a very long time before they come around again.
If you can understand all these, then you’ll do well in everything. It all comes down on using your brain really. Use your logic and creativity. It helps a lot. Whats better is if you can have the brain of a twisted villain while keeping a pure heart. Thats me. LOL If only you knew how dark, sick and twisted my mind really is.. 
but my heart, though its not completely pure.. I still am and will always be a good person, or try to. The evil side is VERY tempting.. but I rather stick on the good side. Although occasionally I would put myself between the borders, get what I mean? Haha…
Yeah… the so called decider-of-your-life exam a.k.a SPM has started early this week. I got mixed feelings about it.. Happy, relieved, sad, angry, frustrated and much more. More negative than positive though. Haha.. Well, its 4 paper down and 6 more to go. All the science subject gonna start off from next week. We got Add. math on Tuesday, Pend. Islam on Wednesday and Chemistry on Thursday. I hope I’ll do better than the first week…. oh, my self-realization finally came I guess, since I studied the whole day today and my brain don’t feel tired at all.. Wow.
Life after SPM? I dunno… I still don’t know what I want to be. But there are several things I plan to do after SPM. Some of them are:
Thats my plan for now. Haha.. Pretty simple eh? 
Until the 27th of November, I will put these plans on hold.
~ Chii, fighting!!
To my juniors, happy holidays! I hope you’ll enjoy your vacation but don’t forget to study though. Even if its just a lil bit. Better than having your brain empty when school starts. Haha…
Don’t forget to contact me during the holidays! If I’m feeling generous, I might take you for a treat or something. But I’m not promising anything though..
Lastly, a Yunho gif just because I think its cute. I got it from another site, dunno who made it though. I have the gif of all 5 of them, if u want them you can just ask.
Ahaha… I think DBSK’s Mirotic dance is jjang! and its lyric FTW!
“You want me; you’re falling for me,
You’re going crazy for me, you can’t escape,
I got you…. under my skin~
You want me; you’re falling for me,
You’re going crazy for me, you’re my slave
I got you…. under my skin~”
I LOLed when I first read them. Seriously.
One of the things I hate in life is making decisions. Because I’m an insecure person, I know I wouldn’t be able to continue on the path that I choose without looking back with doubts and regrets. Constantly thinking what would have happened if I choose the other path, I would think, would my life become better? Would I be happier? Should I regret making this choice?
And sometimes because of these uncertainties, I find myself unable to move forward. I’ll keep contemplating whether I should continue my steps forward… or turn around and head back? Its hard because no one knows the right thing to do as there is no right or wrong in life. Its just a matter of opinion. Things work out in different ways for different people.
